#iheartzion


HEARTACHE & HEALING

I'm giving myself permission today. Permission to feel heartache, but also feel healing. My 5th son, Zion Isaiah, turns 5 today, which means it's been 5 years without him. His 10 days here on earth were days lived breathing in a miracle and truly learning that life is...

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You are not forgotten

Yesterday was the first time I heard the words, "I forgot about him." Those four words have haunted me these last three years. That one day, my precious Zion, would be forgotten. I was talking to acquaintances as Jett was being himself, interjecting hilarious side...

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3 years

Healing: the process of making or becoming sound or healthy again. If I were to choose a word for this past year, it would be healing. Part of me cringes when I say the word. Because how do you heal from loss? How do you find healing in such pain and darkness? How do...

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Burgers, Beers & Tears

It's Monday. I have a lot to do. We got home from vacation and it's just been a complete whirlwind of chaos. Huge projects and deadlines for my husband, end of the year school demands, and of course a dirty house and piles of laundry to tackle.  I've gotten a few...

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SAFETY MOM

I've been thinking about this a lot. We all want to protect our kids. From anything bad in the world. We want to keep them safe, protect their innocence, and shelter them from any harm. We can put up boundaries so they won't get hurt and shield them from experiencing...

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LIVING AFTER LOSS

My dear mama friends who are living after loss, It hurts. And it's hard to explain. The days go on, but our stories remain. Our stories are so complicated with emotions of pain and heartache, anger and sorrow. Our memories leave us in chaos, living after loss. Our...

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THE SONG I NEVER KNEW I COULD SING

I always wanted to be a mom. I mean, babies. So cute and squishy. As a little girl I would pretend to have a baby on my hip while talking on the phone and cleaning the house. In my mind, motherhood had a perfect pitch and was never out of tune. And then I became a...

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, ZION

Two little lanterns. Two years later. Two years ago you changed our world forever. I remember the very moment I laid eyes on you, I think about that moment often. My eyes full of fear, but yours full of peace. In the midst of my chaos, you were my calm. In all of the...

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ZION ISAIAH

In August of 2013, I was pregnant with our 5th child. Having all boys, we were excited for our 20 week ultrasound to reveal the gender of baby #5. My husband and I were anticipating another boy with jokes of how to begin training our basketball team and feed a tribe...

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